I love you, I'm in love with you. I hate you, I want to run. You're pathetic. You're cruel. You make me so happy...but I'm so fucking pissed off I can't see straight. I'm numb. I'm dumb. Dumb as fuck. FUCK.
I want to die. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like I will cry forever. I not diserving of this feeling. I was always good and all I ever got in return was shit. Thank you, god, for blessing me...with tears and pain.
My mom has to be the most chatty fucking person in the entire world. She always has to have these long, drawn out conversations with people. It is so annoying. Ahhhh! I hate being annoyed first thing in the morning.